Perfection?

I had a wonderful time on our little vacation. Warm sun, relaxation, kids playing, husband golfing. Lord, forgive me for not stopping sooner to rest and celebrate you and your love all around me.

So I was thinking about the woman at church who is “perfect”. The one I am the extreme opposite of. You know her, she is petite, sweet, always calm, always kind, always perfectly dressed for the situation, carries a little bit of everything in her purse, eats perfect. She is never rushed, always smiling.

Sometimes I get upset because I am most definitely not like her. I am a fighter. I am not afraid to get in God’s face and remind him of his word and what he promises. I believe that trait in me has a lot to do with why I am alive. That and God’s mercy and love for me!

I work hard to advocate for my kids. I push/encourage those I care about to be the best they can be. I'm always encouraging them to use their gifts and talents. The only place I talk softly is in my witness to those I care about. Some would be hitting the ones they love over the head with God’s Word. I choose to live his Word through my actions. Ministering love and forgiveness in practical ways. I’m available when needed. Ready to help in any way I can. But I feel so unpolished. Is that wrong? Should a Christian woman really seek after that “polished” look? Please don’t get me wrong, I am neat and clean and I do get my hair done and occasionally I treat myself to a mani/pedi but not like the “perfect” woman at church. I feel that how I conduct myself reflects on my husband and family. Is this right or wrong? I don’t know. How much is too much? How much is too little? Does it really matter? What do you think?